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[sunday
january 15, 2006
at 7:02pm] |
So...I'm really up and down lately. I need to get over the past four months. I need to move on. He doesn't like me anymore. he just wants to be friends and that's IT. I should only think of him as a friend because that's all he wants to be.
I'm just afraid that I've acted to horrible that we stil won't be as close to each other as we were...
And I should just start realizing that nothing will go my way when it come to relationships.
Who knows about the future, though?
I feel like I'm scarred for life, but who knows.
I really haven't over-analyzed anything lately...which is making everything a lot easier. Granted, I still get down a lot about everything, but I mean, can anyone really blame me? He's a perfect guy and I know deep in my heart he'll find someone for him someday. Granted, I wont be that girl...but at least i can be happy for him.
I'm back, kids. I really mean it. I may get a little down from here on out...but hopefully I'll learn to deal with it.
I'm making amends with people who I want to keep in my life.
I just have to realize that life isn't fair. And sometimes it sucks.
But you just have to keep on smiling :)
hahahah we'll see how long this optimistic view lasts <3
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[friday
january 06, 2006
at 4:31pm] |
Fuck.
I'd like to give hope another chance and say that I'm worth it...
but at the moment I feel like I'm not.
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[thursday
january 05, 2006
at 1:10am] |
Gob: I've made a huge mistake.
Seriously, I think I've said that about 923849238479234792347938 times today.
But I really meant it. I wasn't quoting Gob.
Sigh.
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[wednesday
january 04, 2006
at 8:44pm] |
My life is pretty crash-worthy at the moment. Family is getting to me. Getting to me bad. I don't know what to do.
I care about my family so much. But I feel I can't take care of them anymore.
I really miss my uncle. Sometimes I lay in bed and think...wow, he's really gone? How is that possible? I have so many memories of him...I can't just throw them out of my mind.
I've been acting weird with my friends. I'm sorry. I just don't know how to sort through this.
BUT I've been working things out, slowly. I'm so thankful for good people in my life. WIthout them I wouldnt be able to function.
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[wednesday
january 04, 2006
at 9:07am] |
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hahahah this is why I don't listen to James Blunt anymore. I actually threw away his cd in London after I bought it...There's a song, Goodbye My Lover. It's beautiful. The first time I heard it I was when I was walking around Piccadilly Circus (London again). I went shopping on my own. I felt so lost...I didn't know what I was doing or where I was going. I felt alone. I thought I was not trying to be independent. I was relying on people far too much.
I went shopping. I bought amazingly superficial things. I thought they made me happy. One of the things I bought was the Blunt cd. I had the discman of a friend's so I listened to it while shopping. When it got to Goodbye My Lover I was blown away. I'm always a sucker for a good piano song. A man that can play the piano and sing is a good man indeed.
It's weird though...now that I listen to it, the song has changed meaning.
My favorite line:
I am a dreamer, but when I wake
you can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take.
Oh, why did I throw away his cd? Because there was a song that reminded me too much of Jayson...it reminded me too much of him. But now that I listen to it...it reminds me of another.
What's wrong with me?
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[tuesday
january 03, 2006
at 11:42pm] |
I feel...like an idiot.
I really need to learn to think with my head and not my heart.
My heart has been thinking too much lately.
Right?
...right?
What's so wrong with me? I'd like to think I'm a good person. I mean well. Yes, I get some things wrong...or a lot of things wrong...but I have a good heart.
I have a good heart.
It's my mind that is so negative. It's my heart that says, "just let things unfold. just be yourself."
but it's my head that says, "if you listen to your heart, you'll be crushed just like last time. do you really want that?"
I don't know if I can handle another heart break.
But I love listening to my heart. It always has better thoughts than my logic.
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[tuesday
january 03, 2006
at 10:05am] |
So a friend was crusing facebook and found this photo of me...is it sad that I really love this photo? Classic me. I don't know. It's a real smile. It's not a really flattering photo of me, but that's what makes it so classic me. hahah you can't even see my eyes because the rim of my glasses are in the way... I'm trying to find a photo that is the real me...none of this fake smiles, fake attitude, fake anything. Every now and then I'll take a photo that makes me realize I'm not as bad as I thought...this is one of those photos. But I think I'm the only one who sees it at the moment.
And hahaha I love how it's with Joseph. I don't even remember this photo being taken. It's from a party this year, right after I got back from European Term. Seriously, him and his fiancee, Batz, are the best couple in the whole entire world. I really love the both of them and they make me believe that true love is in fact real.
As jaded as I am, there are couples out there that makes me realize that near flawless love does exist. Bees-Batz are just one couple. My roommate and her boyfriend are another. I mean, they go through times, just like everyone in the world, but...when they're together I just look at them and think..."it does exist. I'm not just trying too hard to believe it's real..."
Yeah. Yeah.
P.S. hahah I just noticed...that photo really isn't flattering of me at all...When did my nose get so long? What an angle!
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[monday
january 02, 2006
at 11:39pm] |
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I've had Kanye West stuck in my head. What is the world coming to.
It's already been an interesting day. Sigh. I don't know when I'm going to get my act together. I really don't. Rain that turns into ice is frightening. Why does it rain in the middle of winter? That's scary. When it turns into ice the roads look like most frightening.
Anyway, I was able to finally talk to Paul after so long <3. Totally made my day. Sometimes I wonder if I'm alone in the world relationship-wise, but then I realize Paul is pretty much my male counterpart when it comes to romantic ideas/relationships. I wish more guys would be like him...funny, trendy, intelligent, AND a good looking asian? Did I mention he's a romantic? GAH! It's good to know he's in the world. I swear, if any girls ever hurts him again...I'll totally take her down. I hate it when good guys are cut down.
So, I was thinking...I need to really start working on what's happening with my life. The missionary work sounds promising, but I really want to do it with the person I've been planning it with...I'm not sure if they still want to do it. If they decide to bail on me...I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe I should stick with it. But I was perhaps hoping we'd do it together?
I also need to organizing everything. I have clutters everywhere. Who's going to be more responsible this term?! CHRISTINE!
And who's not over-analyzing everything??? Me?? So far I'm 0 for 1. But I'm slowly working on it.
Oh, I recieved March of the Penguins for Christmas...made me think about...made me smile.
AND I'M OUT.
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[sunday
january 01, 2006
at 1:37am] |
OH
and i almost forgot to mention.
michael made me a list of things i must change about myself starting jan. 1st. 2006.
1- i will be self confident once again
2- not over analyze EVERYTHING
3- not worry about life-- let things pass by if need be
4- make the best of friendships...let them evolve on their own.
5- smile more often.
so here we go. out with the old and in with the new.
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[sunday
january 01, 2006
at 12:57am] |
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sigh. happy new year.
i actually went to a big new year's party...got to wear my new black dress. felt really out of place. everyone at the party was getting SMASHED and and trying to hook up with each other...i, on the other hand, was the only sober person there. and hooking up was NOT something i was interested in.
everyone kissed someone, but me.
i refused to kiss a stranger...and there was only one person i wanted to kiss on new year's, but he wasn't there. (who knows if he even thought about me at midnight?) i think michael was a litttle miffed about me not kissing him, but what can you do. he had enough girls hawking over him for a kiss.
and now i'm home already. michael and i left...we're not into those kind of parties anymore. partying is still fun...but only when you're in the mood for it. so now we're at my house...he's showering and i'm...well, i'm sitting here.
the party itself was kind of lame. when we got there this guy came up to me and was like "you have large breasts...would you like to dance?" i politely declined and spent the rest of the night dodging his looks. michael actually went up to him and said to quit looking at me because it was freaking me out.
then another guy asked me if i graduated with him...because he remembers dating me in high school and misses me.
i told him that he must be mistaken...but he refused to believe me. honestly, what guys do to talk to girls.
it was good having michael there...it's fun having him around. he was supposed to leave before new year's but stuck around...i'm going to miss him when he finally moves for good.
he's pretty smashed right now, but you can't really tell. the only reason why i know he's drunk is because he keeps calling me Mee Kyung. actually it sounds more like "MEEEE KYUUUUU". i don't know why he does that, but he does when he's drunk.
sigh-- in all honesty, the whole night i was wishing someone was at the party with me. i thought perhaps, by some small chance, we could spend new year's together. wishful thinking.
and on that note, i bid you farewell...it's movie time and michael wants to watch Jaws...hahahah.
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[friday
december 30, 2005
at 8:36pm] |
I seriously can not get enough of this movie.
hahah I found a post from 2004 about how much I love this movie.
My, how I haven't changed.
I think I appreciate the plot more...being a little older and a little wiser?
I WANT MY MOVIE BACK :(
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[friday
december 30, 2005
at 1:28pm] |
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Snow Patrol, Run |
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So I'm stuck in Minnesota. I'm half hoping that I won't be able to go back to school on Monday. I knew I loved snow for so many reasons.
The history seminar paper has died a pathetic and tragic death. I threw the paper into the snow. It really was shit to begin with. Alright, so I didn't throw it into the snow on purpose...it all blew out of my hands and I was too lazy to retrieve it until it was too late...it's all blurry and messy. Oh well. Fifteen pages and an outline gone.
...that's what I get for writing with pen and loose leaf paper? Who does that anymore besides me, anyway?
I've been learning Korean. Sigh. What a pain. But I'm going to learn it, damnit. This way when I go there to find my biological mother...perhaps it will come in handy. I don't know. I totally see myself being all "do you eat socks in my pants?" on them...I don't even know if I'm learning it correctly. hahahahah, I wish I knew someone who would help me with this...maybe I should call up my old korean friends? From so long ago that I've lost contact with? How awkward.
New Years is ruined. I was going to go to Illinois and celebrate it there, but with the freshly coated layer of snow and accidents no one is driving anywhere. This means I'll be celebrating it here. Which means...I'll probably not be doing anything exciting for New Year's. I don't know why I was excited to begin with. I never really have a lot of fun on New Year's. I thought perhaps it would be different this year...but who am I kidding?
I bought this black dress and everything...I suppose I could wear it to formal this year...SIGH. Formal? That's so far away. I don't even want to think about it yet.
Strike that from the records.
So yesterday was a strange day. Heh, I would love to talk about it...but it's just so weird that I can't even bring myself to actually type it all out. Let's just say I hope I never have to do that ever again...especially since my MOTHER set it all up.
Anyone else excited about Memoirs of a Geisha being turned into a movie? Seriously, casting pretty much rules, the script seems pretty tight and seriously, I'm pretty excited. I loved the book so I'm hoping the movie does it justice.
So my grand plan is to have a stellar foreign movie collection. How nerd-like is that? This is how I think when I should be saving money for 1) Volunteer work 2)Grad school 3)an apartment 4)a vehicle 5)cell phone bills after college 6) a life.
So far I own:
-My Sassy Girl (Korean)
-Goodbye, Lenin! (German)
-Spring, Fall, Winter, ...and Spring (Korean)
-Tae Guk Gi (Korean)
What I want:
-Friends (Korean)
-Failan (Korean)
-The Motorcycle Dairies (Spanish)
-Il Mare (Korean)
-Lola Rennt (German)
hahaha and that is the extent of my foreign film knowledge. Korean and German. HAH and it's not even obscure German or Korean. Sigh. I do what I can.
P.S. So I borrowed my copy of My Sassy Girl to a friend...and they said it won't work anymore...so I go online to buy another one...AND THEY DON'T SELL IT ON AMAZON ANYMORE.
WHAT THE HELL?
WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?
WHAT AM I TO DO?
I just watched the damn movie and it was fine...
GAH.
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[wednesday
december 28, 2005
at 4:48pm] |
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Aside, The Weakerthans |
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I'm currently typing from my Aunt's house...the funeral was today. It's an odd thing, funerals. I'll leave it at that.
It's a pretty torn subject with me right now. One part of me wants to cry day and night, but I can't. My parents have been handling this very hard. I feel as though I'm parent at the moment...trying to carry them through this. It's tough because this is the first time they've really let their guard down about a death. Usually it's me that falls apart...it's just too much at times.
This death has got me thinking...perhaps I've been looking at everything in the wrong light. I always say I want to do things, but never do them. I always want to change, but never do. I always want something, but am too afraid to go for it. I don't know. Perhaps it's just emotion speaking, but I really want to do so much with my life. Yeah, I'm a cynical person. Yeah, I'm a harsh person at times. Yeah, I can be pretty negative about things...but fuck, what's the point in living if you don't have some kind of hope, right?
Did I tell you Nick came to the funeral? My Uncle always liked him...I was surprised because no one knew he was coming. It was a bittersweet moment. He took the death of my Uncle pretty hard. He's no good with death either. It was good seeing him there, though, I won't lie. It was like seeing an old friend. I haven't seen him for a while...we're both so different now. He's matured, gotten wiser. Dare I say, he's grown up? Finally, at the age of 23 he's grown into his own. I'm proud of him. He has to leave tomorrow for NYC. He asked me to come along and I almost went. Just because I miss all my friends out there. I need a close group of friends again...friends that can call me in the middle of the night and say, "hey, I need a break from life, let's watch a movie and hang out". I miss that.
I've realized how much I've grown from freshman year. But I've also realized how much further I have to go...
I'm not putting this under a cut...because I'm a rebel like that. Took it from Esther. I usually never fill these out...
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Went skydiving--took a gondola ride in Venice--stood on the beaches of Normandy--played with Swiss cows in Switzerland--went bike riding in Wales--got lost on in Rome--saw Ewan McGregor in London--gazed at the Eifel Tower at night in Paris--watched skateboarders in Sweden--tried absinthe in Berlin--read Kafka in the Prague--slept on an overnight train--fell hard for a stranger.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I usually don't make resolutions. This year is different. I have goals that I plan on keeping.
5. What countries did you visit?
England, Wales, Scotland, Sweden, Czech Republic, Germany, France, Italy, Vatican City, Switzerland.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
A professional job, a vehicle, money, a real life.
7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Every day from Euro Term because it was so amazing, "do you remember...that night in October..."-- a memory that will remain a secret.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Opening up to people I might not have otherwise.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Taking Europe for granted at times...being an idiot.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Having my heart stabbed repeatedly. Other than that, nothing I didn't get over.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Probably a trip to the Normandy Beaches...a life long dream.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
All of my friends...without them I really am nothing of importance.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
So-called friends who don't stand by others in a time of need, parents of friends who criticize them for no reason, myself for various reasons.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Europe. End of story.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seeing Ewan McGregor in person, skydiving, going to Glasgow, ugh-- at the time, spending the summer with Mark (I look back and just laugh).
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
"Aside" or "The Reasons" by The Weakerthans because it reminds me of what I went through this year...
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or hardened?
Happier...but changed happier...
ii. thinner or fatter?
Much fatter. I need to work on that.
iii. richer or poorer?
Eh, same.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Relaxed, not taken things for granted...
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
over-analyze everything.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
At my Aunt's bar that was closed for the day. What a waste. But I saw my family and that's always good.
23. Any one-night stands?
Negative.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
LOST.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate-- no. Dislike, yes.
26. What was the best book you read?
A Moveable Fest by Ernest Hemingway. I've never read it before until I was in Paris...and now I'm in love with it.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmmm...probably The Microphones just because I never listened to them before 2005.
28. What did you want and get?
New experiences to talk about.
29. What did you want and not get?
A life beyond Augustana.
30. Favorite film of this year?
Hmmm...difficult. I don't really remember what came out this year.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I worked on my birthday and then some friends surprised me at my house with balloons, presents, and a birthday cake. I was 21. No drinking because I had to work that night.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
"Stupid". I don't match what I think people will like. I match what I like.
34. What kept you sane?
My close friends, my faith, and my iPod.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Kim Jong Il and everything about the North Korean "talks".
37. Who do you miss?
Eh, someone.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"You might roll your eyes at this, but I'm so glad that you exist."
or
"...and I'm leaning on this broken fence between past and present tense...and I'm losing all those stupid games that I swore I'd never play, but it almost feels okay."
Thank God for The Weakerthans...
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[tuesday
december 27, 2005
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Sometimes I really loathe the world and everything in it. My uncle died Christmas night. It's rough around here. We all pretend that it's not a big deal...that deaths happen. But inside I feel as though someone has shredded my heart yet again. It's even more difficult because I'm trying something different. Rather than retracting back to my sitting-at-home-by-myself-crying tactic, I've been doing the whole...denying? No, I know that he's gone. I'm just trying to already move on. How long could I be depressed about my beloved uncle dying? I don't even want to know. He meant so much to me. He meant so much to my family. I really don't know what else to say.
He sent me money for Christmas...I was supposed to write him a thank you letter for it. I don't know. I still want to write it. Lame?
I'm trying really hard to move on...not to be depressed about this. I really don't know what to do. I really hate Christmas. My grandfather died unexpectedly two days after Christmas. Now my uncle. I hate it I hate it I despise this holiday.
Do you ever cry where you can't stop? Or you don't know how you started?
I'm trying to not cry. I'm already trying to get other things done...to wipe this holiday from my mind.
Honestly, I don't know what I'm doing.
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[thursday
december 22, 2005
at 6:53pm] |
So I've been very busy on break, believe it or not. Trying to research two major papers [Art History and History Seminar] really pays a toll on one's mental capacity. Sometimes I really love history. Other times...no, I really love history in general.
I've been spending most of my time researching and writing...how horrid is that on Christmas break?
I watched My Sassy Girl with Meshers today. It's fun having him around for a little while...I haven't seen him since...mid-May? I think? I don't know why, but I have this strange feeling that after break I won't see him for years. He's moving out of NYC and into ATLANTA. Why? Only he knows. He wants a break from "the gang"...I understand his perspective, but I'm just fearful that he's going to break away from everyone to try and define himself. Which is fine, but I'll miss him. We've been through so much together...it's like saying goodbye to a brother.
I need a damn haircut. This is getting ugly.
So I think I know what I want to do after college.
Here's the plan, thus far:
Graduate from Augustana College with a degree in History.
Go to Africa and do some kind of volunteer work.
Come back and apply for grad school...somewhere.
Go to grad school for PhD.
Become a world famous history professor. The Indiana Jones of History.
Go on wild adventures, trying to find historical artifacts and battle Nazis...or neo-Nazis now, I suppose.
Pretty good plan, right?
Yeah. Well, my mother is semi- on board with this plan...she doesn't know I'm trying to go to Africa and work, but I think she'll understand. My father...not so into anything I'm planning. He wants me to attend grad school right away. He's already tempting me with $$. Today he tells me that if I go to grad school right away he'll give me $40,000 to start off with...SPENDING money, he tells me...to get started with post-college life. He also says that he'll buy me a car of my choice...as a "good luck in grad school" type of thing. Now, we all know I'm trying to get a vehicle out of my parents...but he tells me I can get almost any car I want, as long as I go to grad school right after Augustana. This includes [as he specifically pointed out] my beloved Lexus I drive by in the car sales parking lot whenever I'm home.
Why does he do this? Because he wants me to attend grad school right away. But this isn't my plan. And as much as it breaks my heart [and my superficial ways], I told him no. I just rejected a Lexus and $40,000. What the hell is wrong with me?
Oh yeah. I want to help people. There we go.
He's not happy about this. I didn't tell him I'm planning on going to Africa. I'm pretty sure he'll flip out when I tell him. But...you know...I need to leave the nest sometime...And I need to start thinking for myself sometime as well. He'll understand. He always does.
I really love my parents, don't get me wrong. Sometimes I just think I need to start doing things on my own. They always understand in the long run. I'm a good kid. They know this. Sometimes I make mistakes, but usually they're modest ones.
My father is getting older, softer in his parenting. He's still staunch on many issues...but all fathers are like that, right? Like yesterday he tells me he wants to meet one of my friends from school. It was a little awkward just because of the fact that my father thinks I should bring home this friend so he can meet him...but honestly, why? It's a little humorous because my dad is really curious about this person...but doesn't want to admit it to me, I think.
I think this issue of grad school right away will be a lasting issue at my house...It might prove to be a thorn in my side, but...I should do what I think is right...right?
P.S. You know what I hate? Missing someone. I hate it because there's really nothing you can do about it until you see them again...but you still get that feeling in your stomach that time is just an obstacle you must overcome until you can see that person again. I think I miss them a little.
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[wednesday
december 21, 2005
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I probably should be worried, but at the moment I'm too involved with the fact that there are many things I do not know.
Finally, I feel as though I've found something concrete to put my faith into. Not just religious faith...but faith in general. I have this strange feeling that I'm either going to be utterly ruined by this revelation or be utterly content. Either way, just take it how it is, right?
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[monday
december 19, 2005
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Well, I can't say that it's been a flawless transition from school to home. My family recieved some unfortunate news about an Uncle and rushed to his side. Because of that I just got home last night...it's rough, but we're all pulling through...and he's alive still, so we can be thankful for that.
I'm really not wanting to talk about it, I just want to let you all know in case I'm a little off lately.
Anyway.
It's already the first day back and I want to be back down in the Quad Cities. How insane is that? I still have no idea what to do with my life and I still am afraid that I'll just become lost in the abundant supply of opportunites I'll probably waste.
I'm trying to figure out a way to get my parents to allow me a vehicle for school until spring break...I have NO idea how to go about this, but I'm trying to be confident that I'll get it figured out.
I'm still positive about life.
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[saturday
december 17, 2005
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hmm...i feel i should post this before it goes away.
i'm really happy right now.
even if my family and i are going through some issues.
pretty damn happy
<3
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[friday
december 16, 2005
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I don't really believe in New Year's resolutions...but I know I need a change for 2006. To be a better person one must constantly refine and redefine oneself. So I've been thinking of what I can do to be a better person.
My list:
-Stop over-analyzing EVERYTHING. Especially when it deals with someone in particular. Instead, just take things how they are. Think positive. If something comes up, just deal with it then. Don't make a big deal out of it all. [Which will come in very handy as currently I am thinking about a situation where I would in all other certainties be over-analyzing...but no, I must stop].
-Quit drinking pop [soda].
-Spend more time maintaining friendships. Really make time for people. Don't say no for friendships. Try to make amends with people who I've neglected because of school, Europe, laziness, whatever the reasons.
-Eat healthier. This is one of those goals everyone tries to do. But I really want to do it. I think a balanced diet will help one feel better each day. hahahaha, whatev. I just don't want to eat crap anymore.
-Exercise. Eh. I'm not about to go to Pepsico and work out...I did that other years and I just go and play on the equipment. I'm thinking yoga or pilates. I LOVE yoga.
-Read the bible daily. Try to start a bible study group with my friends...I know hardly anyone reads the bible, but I think it would help if I had outside minds to inquire when reading the Word of God.
[Meditation on what I read is included in this]. I used to do this...I think I officially quit when I became a freshman in college. Absurd.
-Start taking more photos. I really need to get cracking on capturing my senior year. It's the last year of college and I'm so afraid I won't see some of these people again. It deeply saddens me.
-Take life how it is. Out of all my goals...this one will by far be the most difficult. I constantly wish for something better, I constantly think about the past. I always think about how I could have done something different or how I screwed something up. I must stop that and just take life how it is. I will screw up in life. I will wreck things. I won't always get what I want. Things won't always go my way. I just need to realize that with the good comes the bad. But I also have to remember with the bad comes the good. I need to be more thankful for what I have rather than worry about what I don't have.
I think that's a good start.
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december 16, 2005
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Jack Johnson, Better Together |
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There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come we're so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together
Seriously, I think this beats any past Jack Johnson songs...truly my favorite one.
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